(A VERY PERSONAL VENT) Why I haven't been posting for a while.

It’s been a long while since I’ve posted... I’ve only been posting rarely... and most I've posted is just Nexus Digitalis and Aniimach...

I haven't been focusing on my other projects, Ka-pow Koopalings, Xander the Xiibuss, Mari’s and Inkies being my main one’s... and feel like I’ve been slowly abandoning them... I’ve always have a mind telling me to post something cool... and you hear a doubt like some voice is holding you back... wasting your potential multiple times... and shaming you for that... even though it wasn’t your... that voice tells to give up... stop existing... and you’re not like them... it’s like forcing you to give in to them... what’s worse is that it feels like someone is punching you, but no ones there.... it’s that bad that you spend more time fighting it while slowly questioning yourself saying its too late, instead of keeping promises. Some of my project had great concept ideas... inspired by people that have slowly got into controversies and allegations... which is why I’ve been avoiding making them or possibly canceled my projects. Xander’s species, Xiibuss, being own my mantisgirl, Hazbin hotel, Cartoonmania, ... I worry if people are going to judge or shame me for making them and I’ll just feel worse. What worse is that I’m feeling this way in the worst state of the internet sometimes... it’s mostly the negativity I’ve been watch on the internet... I usually just go on but... it’s that bad I think about that more than anything normal” Some one died, some one got into controversy, politics, ragebait, toxicity, FUCKING AI, LITTARLY ANYTHING ABNORMAL AND COULD DRIVE YOU TO THE POINT THAT IT’S USELESS TO KEEP GOING! Since 2024 I’ve going through that... and I’m tired... I can’t even upload something cool without thinking about something bad happing! I tried to be normal, but what the hell’s to point when all I see is straight shit after shit! I didn’t ask to be in this dystopia, and neither anyone else here! Another dumbass reason I’ve been procrastinating! My energy's drained and I sometimes wonder why I’m still here! I’M STARTING TO WONDER IF WE ARE PUT HERE TO SUFFER! GOD, ARE YOU SERIOUSLY ENJOY PEOPLE LIKE ME SUFFERING... WHAT ARE YOU DOING TO US... DO SOMETHING NORMAL FOR ONCE AND LET US BE A PEACE!

I’m sorry if I went off topic but I just want to let out what’s in my mind!

I’m still trying to draw for the time being... and trying to post more frequently...